i love this :)

(: Hanya sebuah harapan untuknya di atas sana :)

(: Hanya sebuah harapan untuknya di atas sana :)

langit , jaga dia ya . jangan pernah buat dia nangis . jangan pernah ngucilin dia . langit , aku pengen banget liat dia tersenyum di atas sana. Karena aku sayang banget sama dia . mm , ya tuhan dengarlah permintaanku ini.  Berilah bintang kecilku itu kesempatan untuk tetap bersinar terang di langit malammu yang indah itu . dan izinkanlah dia menjadi satu satunya bintang yang kan tetap abadi dalam hatiku . bila malam tiba , katakanlah pada dia untuk menatap ke bawah , mencari sebuah jendela kecil tempatku melihatnya yang begitu mempesona di atas sana . tuhan , aku sayang sama bintang itu . biarkanlah dia tetap disana , tetap untuk lebih lama lagi . aku masih ingin berbincang bincang dengannya, melihat senyumannya, dan melepas rinduku ini padanya. Namun , ketika matahari menyongsong dari arah timur , tangisanku membludak , mengapa lagi dan lagi dia harus pergi . rasanya aku sangat ingin malam takkan tergantikan karena hanya pada saat itulah aku dapat memberitahukannya semua yang kurasakan, keluh maupun kesahku. Namun sebelum dia menghilang seutuhnya oleh kilauan cahaya matahari , dia sempat tersenyum padaku dan berkata dengan lembut . “ De, nanti malam jangan lupa ya buka jendela kamu lebar-lebar , agar kakak bisa mengawasimu dari kegelapan malam ini . kalo misalnya waktu siang hari kamu rindu sama kakak , rasakan kakak yang sedang mengalir dalam aliran darahmu dan katakan kamu rindu kakak :) . kakak janji kakak akan ngejawab kok .karena , dengan menghilangnya kegelapan malam dari penglihatan kamu , kakak gak bakalan ikut-ikutan hilang juga kok , karena kakak dan kamu adalah satu , perasaan , dan tawa kita juga adalah sama :) “.

          Khayalanku pun berlalu bersamanya . mataku masih berair , akupun menanggapinya dengan tawa ceria . “ Makasih , bintangku yang mempesona :) . makasih banyak untuk senyuman dan motivasinya . aku harap khayalanku yang benar benar indah tadi kan tetap ada dan takkan pernah hilang dari memorianku “.

          Huaaaaam ,, Akupun tertidur begitu lelap di atas tempat tidurku itu dengan senyuman bahagia terpancar dalam ekspresiku saat tertidur . oh iya , masih penasaran , apakah aku bakalan bermimpi tentang bintang kecil ku itu lagi gak sih ? :)

): Please , Listen To Me :(

): Please , Listen To Me :(

Please , keep this confidence . please  keep it , please … don’t ever leave me , please don’t ever make me disappointed , please don’t ask me to go … please trust me just for once , please …

            If you wanna leave me , don’t cry . if you wanna go away from me , please don’t ever look back . please … I don’t wanna separated by this way . I don’t wanna feel this feeling that make me broken . I don’t wanna be a stranger in your life anymore . I wanna be something that could erase all your tears . I wanna be someone that understand you more than the others . please … listen to me .

            This ego has persuaded me to forget all about you at that time . but , more and more , I’ve to know that without you , I am nothing . cause you are the one who always be in my heart , the one who become my inspiration and motivation in this world .

            So please , sorry … sorry for all the things that I’v done to you and its hurts you . sorry if I was wrong at that time . told you that you’re nothing for me , asked you to prove something without any strong reason , realized that you aren’t the one in the past , and you know what ? the one who deserve to be Nothing aren’t you , but I am :(

            Ya , I am telling you the truth … and I know , its to late to say sorry , but this is the very good moment to say GOOD BYE TO YOU :( …

            Listen to me , please . All the things that we’ve done before , its okay if you wanna erase it from your mind . and if you wanna choose me as the very bad nightmare in your life , I am ok . ya , I am sick of all this pretending, I was pretending to smile when you look at me , but in fact unfortunately , in the deepest heart of mine , I am broken , but I should realize that this is already my destiny from allah and I can’t change it anymore :( Sorry , sisth :’(

(: I’m ENDAH :)

Hi , all bloggerzzzz :) hehehehe … oh ya , I wanna introduce my self , my full name is Endah Retno Ningtyas , but you can call me endah . I was born in Palu, central Sulawesi, Indonesia , 24^th of July 1997 . my hobbies are browsing the internet , reading novel , comic , playing game in the computer , and so on . my favorite colors are Green , Black and Yellow :) if you ask me , what’s my motivation in this world , my answer is my parents, my family , and all you guys that always support and trust me . give me so many notices that’s y I could be better than before . tell me if i’m wrong when I didn’t realize it before , angry with me when I never consider about something near by me . thanks Allah Swt for given me so many people that want me stay with them . and I am trying to prove everthing that I have .

          Oh ya , about my daily activities , actually as my blog’s title , ya … I’m just an Ordinary Girl … now I am a nine grader student in al-azhar junior high school in palu. Well , I love my life , I am trying to enjoy with it , and none can change it :)

          Next , I have an idol that I really like since I am in the 3^rd grade of elementary school . her name is Miley Cyrus or Hannah Montana . weeww , the big question is Why am I interesting with her ? because … she is the one who has made me love to learn about English , I am trying to study more caused of a dream that I have . may be you’ll think that this is a very silly dream but this is the truth . I wish if I could speak English fluently that’s y I can meet her and speak to her with her own language :) hahahaha

          Others ? mmm ,, for me its already enough to tell you who am I , that have written the content of this blog :)

          Hope that you’ll enjoy mine yaaa :)

THANK YOUUU …